Monday, April 28, 2014

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Pictures of Me

Problem

My mom was being annoying and I just asked and she was upset..

Problem

They loaded the page without the Ginny post coming up this time so it said my mo instead.  ':[

Problem

I bet this is for Ginny cuz I said I didn't know if I was taking voice this summer.  She's a theater and therapy person who specializes in the voice..

Problem

Now, my mom got Curry but some kind I never had cuz she had to..

And she gave me the wrong amt. of money for the social group today..  I'm not picking up after anyone.  I'm not older than my mom.  She doesn't need special care.  She just needs advice and help.

Call 911 for me.

Re: Jews are disgusting beings. Exxample : Ivy_Meer

stfu bitch do it 

otherwise i will kill ellen

Problem

Someone on IMDb who is like stalking me who makes me uncomfortable posted the state they're from.  Another user, not really bad, happened to say for me to send her pix of parts of my body and she'd send me hers.

They also loaded something that might be like my future son.

Problem

Sometimes, my mail just keeps loading and I see that circle thing.. on the IMDb browser..

Issue

People seem to blame me for not "making" my dad.  Some people say, "Make me."  We should respect them, but people get jealous of who I am.

Like, I've wanted him to exercise and get out.  He and my brother are often reluctant to listen to me.  There's nothing I can do.  Now, I find it's a point of interest rather than talking to me about something -else- important.

Controversial Topic

I am sorry it is so, but it's entertainment.

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What can I say?  That's what people are thinking about, and I don't believe in saying oh I'm too cool to talk or whatever.

I can help.

I remember the early-mid 1990s well.  It's when the 80s kids grew up.  They had responsibilities and adventures.

Problem

I know you would tell me I'm not good enough for something for some reason and I'll find out it's race or who my parents are.

Problem

It's not right to be mean to me.

Something Sad

Something hurt me.  My mom made chicken curry for like once in like a few years, and my dad took it.. we had wings, too.  And he dumped a lotta it finally and some rice.  My mom took the rest I think.  Didn't ask me if I wanted more.

Olden Days

Think of all those people born in the 1970s experienced and when I was born they thought they'd be jealous of my young age and being born later and so it all stopped and I just see what things were like by watching educational television.

Not Fit For Another Race

Something just came over me.  I bet Ellen thinks I'm not fit for 1980 stuff.  I don't know where she's coming from.  She doesn't like me nor my parents.  Like, the appopriate question, which she always can do, is are you cool or if you have problems do you have good parents?  Well, then it goes I don't have anything to do with anything good about them.  I think Ellen thinks that because she is thinking like I'm 1/2 Chinese and not camera ready for something like that.  It's just that if she knows I'm 1/2 Chinese, that's "what" she'd think.

The New Thing for..

Ellen

People are taking efforts to tell Ellen she "wants to do it" and not be my friend and not "be there" for anyone, like the end of Ellen in an orderly fashion.  She is indeed very likeable.  You know though how you want someone who is at your same caliber?  They seem to do that whenever things go your way.  Guess we all need a break and something to think about.  My life is not quite so comfortable, people all jittery around me.  I don't like going back and forth saying yes Ellen I do like you and would enjoy if in life people could know you some of us and no Ellen if you wanna go that's your life and in your interest.  (I'm watching TV, too..)

Competitive

It's people born around 1960 who are real nice and ***y.  They know how to make you feel good, even when things aren't going as planned.  It's a big competition for them like it was for those really cute guys in high school with the bowl cut brushed to the side who looked English American.  So, I am attacked for getting upset sometimes.  It seems Ellen is making nice letters for her fans.  Also, think about the 1980s and how nostalgic things still were.  I'd like to be a movie actor and bring that back.  They are always meeting people and finding people to make them feel good.  They are free to lead the world and have money to buy a mansion even, though I want a business type earned mansion.  I want to donate money to making prisons a better place and maybe getting people to leave earlier.  So, there's always hope for most.  I think we were supposed to try to act as little kids.  I didn't feel ready, to be safe didn't do it.  I guess it's sorta over at 16.  I feel like I'm stuck how I am forever.

Issue

People think I am always flailing thoughts around, but I would have preferred Ellen never be mean to me.  Don't you realize that's a fault of hers?  However, I enjoy her show.  I would say I am overly offended by the likes of others and most people if you think like I deserve no Ellen, though otherwise I figured she deserves to do what she likes.  I don't know where she gets her support to go on each day as she does.  I wanted to meet people more than be a public icon.  I'll still have Sarah Brightman and Chloe Sevigny.  I don't "expect" people to do things for me, but I'm desperate for friends.

The Lost Generation - People Born in the 1980s

The older people like Johnny Depp, Tim Burton, Ellen DeGeneres, are guilty of when they let down their guard and acted like kids, while we can't even have contact with them when they're not more special than us.  Then, younger kids think they are the mold of how we tried to evolve.  See, it's all about people born around 1960 and their kids born around 2000.

What should be done?  Guess nothing.  It can only get worse if you try to do something.  We just have to keep trying like we've been.  And you can't get mad if you were too lazy to try and someone else your age makes it.

Lost Chance but Still Alive

I'm watching about South Floridian crocodiles and some other animals.  Just looking at Florida it reminds me of me as a tiny spark.  All I know is that you can say anything about what you are and where you're from unless you're from Florida and not really all white..  I want everyone to be able to feel that, a connection with Florida.  I don't know any code.  I mean like that I have that no one else can.  What I'm trying to say was if people weren't racist, I coulda fit right in.  Maybe, my parents would still take me out and just apply sunblock and my hair would be white and not black, really.  I feel I am in trouble for what goes on inside.

Sunday, April 27, 2014

Chloe Sevigny

I was disturbed the word k*** came to mind when that guy was like looking at me like I'm not white and I'm a simple cheat.  People won't stop!  I'm not a toy.



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I must also say it was quite a flippant joke of them to think that they are as emotional outwardly as she is and she is ^something for them^ but not only that but others and just not me but as though I'm too much, like the straw that broke the camel's back.

How long does this last?

Sometimes, the keys are sticking.  It takes awhile for it to type, but it used to seem that way when I pressed Enter.  This is my IMDb browser.  Someone bothered me, and I spoke out but not in a bad way.  I disagree Ellen, I'm a talker, and these people are not polite.
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Sorry

I was a bit upset at my neighbor..

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Sorry

Sorry for pointing @ Ellen, I have been cray cray.

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Mobile

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Problem

My computer is loading slowly on this new browser after talking about a poster I feel is being too like mushy and inappropriate to me secretly.  Ellen probably did it.

Being True

I know I am not accepted doing what people from New Orleans would do.  They do not accept people being mean to them.  They wanna work it out.  They don't have to put on a face.

Orlando is just shit.

They think it's about being mean to people like me, though I don't really seem to quite ^make it^ in a place such as this.  My room is a bit messy.  I didn't know what to do about the internet, MySpace and all.  Lots my friends, they grew bored and I had to think about it.

Giving Others Their Turn

I want other people to get as much attention as me, which overall is impossible, but when they do it I do tend to curse them out in my head but on the outside appear most accepting.  I just don't want to think I'm any less because of them at any moment.  I don't make a fuss, and I do make a fuss over things.  I am happy and I think of how good I am when I'm alone.  I don't like people telling me to submit to someone else so they can get attention, I want them to get attention but I sit there and feel good about myself otherwise.  It works perfectly well.  You are a good person

Problem

I'm tired of typing these problems..

My mom said we meaning the dog, and my neighbor sounded like he said Asian.  I don't need anything held over like that.  I bet Ellen asked him to come out.  That is mean.

Problem

My parents won't stop talking to me in secret message.  They think I wanna react!

Issue

No more Ellen looking at me like I did it.

Problem

My parents might be complaining about me when they were being mean in secret messages.

WHAT'S THAT

A MESSAGE FOR MY DAUGHTER

Unfair

My parents are always acting mean to me to the point I wanna h** them.  I was just eating supper.  They want me to hit things and hurt myself.  Ellen might have done it.  I DON'T AGREE!  WHAT IS WR%ONG WITH YOU?  YOU ARE THE 1 WHO WAS MEAN.

THEY DID IT AGAIN AND ARE HURTING ME.  YOU CAN'T SAY I'M NOT CAUCASIAN.

What Kids Today Think

They think they are more mature than us and can say people born around 1960 are their parents.  They think they ^are^ that and we're not.  Sorry to burst your bubble, but some people have younger parents!  You're not 1st!  Not that it should devastate you.  You were LAST.  You're also the only 1!

Apology

I didn't like something being rubbed in, and it didn't seem good for neither of us.  I'm not so old-seeming myself but have an older parent.  I just know that it's gonna go to someone else, having younger parents.  HA!  I'm sure people'd love to know this, what can I say?

I have a feeling people with older parents have a problem and won't be happy like I can be.  That's the problem, not me.

Class Years

I am almost certain that kids born in 1998 should be a certain way, though apparently it has gone to people born in 1997 somehow.  It makes you wonder why people who existed in 1996 come out a certain way.  Guess it's the class year effect.  The funny thing is it's the style, and I guess computers technically were out in 1997.  I'm gonna go with 1998 being after the cutoff.

Concern

Black people are more concerned about keeping their skin dark and try to be shaped in funny ways.  The main thing about being white is .. being white!  Not twisting your face up.  It just isn't befitting and seems weird.  I mean the females, what they do.  Many of them don't upkeep themselves well though some do well.  I saw 1 lady on The Ellen DeGeneres Show dancing with her small daughter and she was fab!  She acted more white than black but didn't seem to have any problems, like me, just dance.. just dance..

Past Post

No one has a right to go and favor everyone I know over me and then think it's me but they're the 1s all fascinated over it.  It made me mad and think something bad, why I posted this.  You can't just waste my time tossing this nonsense around.  I didn't do anything to anyone, and you revel in that I did.
Is my post at all important?

How else should I say it?  It seems that such and such likes people I know over me and I have no hope of meeting anyone I like anymore.

Righteousness

Someone on the IMDb Soapbox wants to talk to someone famous, like no one is good enough for them.  Lead a life of guilt-riddenness like me for not doing anything but being made to think so!  Like you deserve something and I don't.  Never mind who it happens to, I know it happens.  I've even talked about it a lot, wheresas this person just is riding along and will realize people will not want to talk to them if they don't change back.  They started off speaking to me in Chinese, and that's racist.  Why would anyone think I like that?  I guess it's too late.  I later looked and saw it looked cute with its profile pic.

Recap

Before I go out into the house, sorry for the anger I've had that I hope I all can unweave..  I had to close the door, even, like it open sometimes.  Want a Capri Sun, supper time, and a nap.

Highly Sensitive

I was wondering why Ellen gets to feel so much pleasure ever since she was little and no one else does.  Like Johnny Depp, I equated it with being drunk or having ***.  I mean no harm.  That's something we couldn't even possibly m********* to even to feel appeased, which maybe you'd find a little insulting.  People just want to live their dreams without being told their parents aren't good enough.

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Like, I care about race, but I don't sit there and preach things like that Caucasians should succumb to non-Caucasians. I feel that's the feeling, that boys want the girls to succumb to things of other races, just for fun though, and then it's back to the way things were, they're Caucasian and others who are aren't, like if you're mixed or Eurasian.

If I truly say I think it's important we all be Caucasian and not succumb to what our ancestry is as a race that people who disagree with me should not be the 1s to get away with being comfortable more about being Caucasian and I get stuck with certain people who don't think Caucasian is good but then says in some ways yea but essentially no..like those other people who themselves are Caucasian.

I think we should all just get along. I don't know why some people don't take a hint, though.

My point is that there are Caucasians that preach that non-Caucasians are good and then they push people who don't like that into people in a way they don't like.

If you aren't mine, I must be yours

Playing With Your Kids

What do you think of adults using younger kids getting attention in a better way to tease you?  I think that there are usually other issues than just that.  They might play with identities of others like toys.  Like, they wish they wish someone was unattractive so the youngest 1 looks the absolute best, though you think their lives are not worth it.. xp  They know they can't be the baby, so they act like everything they say is right.  It's those people born in the mid-late 1960s, those dark-haired men who hate the world!  We should not give a care!  This is truly wrong!

and then

getting mad if you can't go through it with a straight face?  What next?!  I think it's rather odd that things should happen that way, am I just upset sometimes and need to put on the plugs?  They could still bother me.  They don't here, though.

OK

but constant bashing?  Physically there?

My shyt life

You think I have what I need, but I have treatment I don't need.  Would you go crazy if everyone said you were perfect, and I mean everyone, and then along cums lil miss ellen d-generes.  I realize she looks nice, but she sends secret messages via other people.

Problem

So I "don't have Ellen."  It's not okay to have people at me all the time.

Problem

My mom won't stop, neither.

Problem

This noise is bothering me.

Problem

I cannot believe how the world has been turned around.

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Mad

No one has a right to go and favor everyone I know over me and then think it's me but they're the 1s all fascinated over it.  It made me mad and think something bad, why I posted this.  You can't just waste my time tossing this nonsense around.  I didn't do anything to anyone, and you revel in that I did.

Question

Why does Ellen claim to be okay if she does all these weird things to me, like has my mom act a certain way cuz she said so, a way that's not good?

Problem

They are rubbing in a friend with older parents.  I'm gonna be seeing this browser all day perhaps.

What I Did

I did miss some blows to the head and am unsure of what really all happened, so it mustn't be too bad, though I feel some people were knocked out as being simpler than they'd like in some way.

Also, last night something creative and applicable and not too painful nor important occurred, and some party pooper just wants to punish me or get other people to sweat doing it.

Problem and Past Possible Apology

So, I am sorry I thought violent thoughts this morning, and you'd think if I didn't mean it I wouldn't do it.  I was mad, though, and tried to find some way to get my anger out..  People are constantly mean to me and it makes them feel good.

However, I don't agree with them tailing me and setting up things to make me mad.  Who do you think is doing this?  My life is so shitty.  My dad looked at me in a mushy way once when I almost said shitty.

They won't admit how mean they are to me.  I don't wanna be punished all the time, I'm good and too old!  I am sick of people like this being involved in Ellen somehow.  Hm, did you just push that thorn in a little more so maybe she really will talk to others at length?  Well, that's what I feel.  It's like there's no Ellen and people are getting away with knowing her for bad reasons.  Maybe, you ask to see how much I am not concerned?

They won't stop!!  They're still going on!!

TV

I was watching them dig up a new Egyptian tomb, hoping it's Tut.

It was so amazing to see, and there were Egyptians with them.  They had some very dark black people help with the lifting up from the tomb.  They seemed really happy in the moment.  I just noticed.

They were reading inscriptions for clues, in big vases.  It was mostly rock with inscriptions it seemed.

The people were so fascinated and it was like a little party.

Irritation

I wanna go to bed but wasted my blog on post-apologetic punishments.

Problem

Does anyone care how shitty my life is because of the secret messages I get?  I don't feel like I can hold myself together.

Issue

From seeing something on TV, I am thinking I am uncomfortable with if my dad has talked to Ellen.

I had a forum where I tried to talk about her with him.. he didn't have much to say ever but "said something."

I guess people are upset if she talked to him at length and|or regularly.  I'm the 1 who seeks out those things if I feel I am worthy!

I hope this post does not cause any problems.  I think I was drawn to think this because what's going on is pretty shitty.  I was influenced by the true interests of other honest people to discuss and think about it this way.  My question would be along the lines of so Ellen just talks to anyone who can up the ante?  LOL?  I guess black people also have an issue with him.  He wants to change and ruin things that are important to you!  Like that's when I felt for a double chin, around him.  Now, I am fatter than my mom.  So, who else does Ellen talk to?  My dad acts like Ellen is better, but I don't see how that's an okay way to treat me.  Think of all the teenagers.  I'm trapped with people with bad interests.

Problem

At the beginning of my new blog is a shit post about my future daughter that pops up 1st.

Weird

Sometimes, it's okay to be mad yourself, but anyway I feel weird listening to Tim Burton that I can't get mad in any way and that if I do someone will do something, even if it came out of being poked at on all sides!  I think it was a twisted message like the selfish insult..

1 of the Suspicious Topics on the IMDb Soapbox

"'When push comes to shove, you can't even breathe.'"

Competition (With This Lady..)

Why are people all strewing the streets that Ellen is better than me.  I never claimed to wanna be the way I am, and I was further ahead than Ellen in the maturity of my looks when I was younger compared to her at that age.  How dare you not let me be who I wanna be because of Tim Burton and his safety rules that are bad and his kind of popualarities.  I seem to do more things than Ellen in the real world, whilst she's wrapped up in some fantasy cloud in L.A.!  I'm not the kind of person she'd be mean to, and she's meanest to me!

And the title, "with this lady" is not necessarily sarcastic.  So, dunno??

True Joke

I want WHAT I want, and I ^want^ >it< noow!

Problem

Someone is teasing me on the Soapbox.  My dad made me mad thinking about my future daughter in a movie and I slapped the wall as I went to my room.  They're addicted to my Gramma thinking that if something happens at the same time it has something to do with a problem I have and needs to therefore be turned into hurting me and the situation.  The idea was not a good 1, and he would not leave me alone.  The problem is I got a bad reaction when I was poked at.

In Prison!

I am so sorry for what I said about someone as a kid, was trying to help others like Robin Hood but am a Far Lefist Republican.

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No one should be in prison "for 45 years." 

I would like to contribute money to make all prisons clinical, happy places where you can get better. They can be mandated to take medicine for their crime. It should not be too hard to have something sedative. 

I feel like I'm in jail with brown eyes and black hair. [givuep] 

I'm not stupid. I can design a place where it's Christian to be locked up in. This is all old stuff. Like, put computers behind shark tank glass and make the keypad so they can't pluck out keys. They can go on the internet and be monitored. 

I think some of them have basketball and outside free time. Hm, 1 has a laptop.  

If you aren't mine, I must be yours

Better

I was even in a very good mood about the people whose feelings I must have hurt with my attitude.  You know, I really need to be careful.  I think I feel much better but still uncomfortable about others getting under my skin.  I just sorta react and then maybe try to ignore like I should so I don't do something wrong I guess.  It's just difficult.  I need to try.

Big Apology - Hope You Will Accept

I am thinking of something in particular, but I am sorry to everyone else especially for the similar thing.  I am very sorry for being so sloppy and careless in how I speak.  I didn't mean anything and should not have ruined that time by playing around.  I should know the right thing for me will come.

Advice for Convicts

The thing that freaks me out is if someone goes out and kills people on purpose.  You can accidentally run into someone and be in trouble if you drank too much alcohol, even if you aren't at the wheel.  It's 30 years I think, or 40, in some places.  All I can say about me going to the mental hospital is my teacher who kinda got me in there once went there 3 times.  I wish that people let us visit more easily.  Guess I have to get my butt up and go do it.  At the SPCA I will be around animals who could even be sick.  I am set to be a dog wrangler.  I wanna cart food in a hospital for a job.  Anyway, I feel sorry for the conditions in jail.  I don't think it makes sense to lock a person up.  They could have a keyboard and computer screen under a protective material and allow them online.  I just found someone who put 2 bullets in someone's heart and killing him, someone in a gang, is only serving 2 years.  I heard most of these people think they will get away with it.  I think we should sing and entertain people in jail, just like in the nursing homes.  If I'm an actor, I wanna contribute money to prisons and jails.  I can't believe people don't get talked to to calm down so they don't do things like this.  They are sorry later, some of them, and they can't handle it.  It's hard to handle some things, even if you change your ways.  And it's just because of lazy societies.  We need to buckle down and change the world.

Don't Be Afraid to Live

That's something people always grew up thinking.  We were pushed in that way to be more positive.

You make mistakes, you fix them, and somehow you learn love, which involves more than yourself and your artsiness.  It involves "girlfriends" and handsome guys.  It involves a telephone.

Saturday, April 26, 2014

Who Deserved Ellen

I think I grew up a good kid.  I only let out my frustrations at home -in hopes for HELP- sorry to bust your bubble!  I did my homework, wanted to help at home, was nice to people, etc. etc.  People hailed me as perfection in being nice and good, smart, etc.  What's not to deserve then????

THEN, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory comes out, and people stop liking talking to me, my life also changing.

I think Ellen may be more mushy because of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.  So, it goes both ways.  I just had a better shot before all this.  I wasn't together enough online and didn't watch the show, which has been on for a long, long time, now, and a break is not out of the question if not an early retirement!

Some weird things happened to me, and it has affected my own relationship with Ellen.  I feel I am considered bad to her now.  I think this is unfair.

Lots of Love, BUT-

I am worried about if the teenagers don't stop being so flippant.

I realized that things happen, like we don't have all this bubbly bathroom stuff sold in all places.  A lot of our lives got through suicide because of things like this!

The teenagers are nice to people who are interested in them.  They are upset about people who don't approve of their way of being - it's an invitation to enjoy what they do.  It seems I can't, though my mom can though it's because of her race I enjoy very little.

So many adults care for them and are attracted to them.  I hope that they have a good time in life and that they meet up somehow.

Late Bloomers

My opinion is that we need to gauge the age of kids of the oldest Late Boomers 1st, so that's parents born in 1957 or 1958.  I know there are moms going around with little kids who look like them, too.  I know for a fact it's all about older moms with kids born in 1997.  I've seen them walking around feeling so special in all the ways we can't be.  Well, keep doing it, I ain't keeping up, though.  I don't know what their future holds depending on what the need to do today.

Nostalgic TV Choices

I saw Sabrina the Teenage Witch, The Big Bang Theory, Friends, and Full House.

TV has some nostalgic things on.  To be honest, these shows weren't that sappy.

I just think things were so nostalgic longer ago, even when I was a baby just getting up.  I was a chubby, white thing with a big head and dark, blue eyes.

Like, they had the nostalgic, beachy things.  Then, you have people like Ellen who decided to take on the whole world with her charm that she had anyway.

You'll find lots of nostalgic things by looking at old movies, too.  Nothing! is like that, today.  You can only dig deep into the wound and blame teenagers today for trashing everything around like nothing should mean anything.  Doesn't it seem like something they do?  I know kids today are incredibly whiney.  Our best group is probably junior high.  They seem to have very fresh moms.  I don't mean to be too harsh but admittedly am trying to hit a certain note and at the moment don't know if I should have.  I can blame their parents for making it like that for the rest of us, too.

How I Feel About Ellen's Age

I know it might be an inappropriate topic, but it does come up online.  What can I do?  I can do 1 thing or another, no in between.

I used to think Ellen was born in even as late as the 1980s if I didn't realize that's when I was born.  That's a lot like the issue I have with going out with my mom.  They all still think she is my sister.

I know that Ellen is a different generation of parents and for some reason it too special in that way too to have anything to do with me.

I am sad she is not like 40.  Instead, she is almost 60.  It seems she is less a part of me being 60 than 40.  60 must be a scary age, but I have close family older than her, as well..

Think of the people born in 1970.  They are the same now as when they were 13 in the 1980s!  Those people seem like real people who watched and made the younger of us feel calm in the world.

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