Competitive

It's people born around 1960 who are real nice and ***y.  They know how to make you feel good, even when things aren't going as planned.  It's a big competition for them like it was for those really cute guys in high school with the bowl cut brushed to the side who looked English American.  So, I am attacked for getting upset sometimes.  It seems Ellen is making nice letters for her fans.  Also, think about the 1980s and how nostalgic things still were.  I'd like to be a movie actor and bring that back.  They are always meeting people and finding people to make them feel good.  They are free to lead the world and have money to buy a mansion even, though I want a business type earned mansion.  I want to donate money to making prisons a better place and maybe getting people to leave earlier.  So, there's always hope for most.  I think we were supposed to try to act as little kids.  I didn't feel ready, to be safe didn't do it.  I guess it's sorta over at 16.  I feel like I'm stuck how I am forever.